A few years ago, I wrote a song about being God’s and only God’s. Somehow, however, along the way, I forgot that He is the only one who can save me. I forgot that I am not self-sufficient. Arrogance got the better of me and I fell apart.

In truth, I am struggling right now. I fear I messed things up big time. I keep coming back to Romans 8:28

So we are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually woven together to fit into God’s perfect plan of bringing good into our lives, for we are his lovers who have been called to fulfill his designed purpose. (TPT)

With this verse, I keep praying that He knew what a mess I would make of things, trying to discern my own way.

As the saying goes: “Men make plans and God laughs.”

In this case, I decided to wing it and hope for the best and I have cried and pondered my purpose and wondered why ever am I even here.

So, as I read on in Romans, I found the following:

Yet even in the midst of all these things, we triumph over them all, for God has made us to be more than conquerors, and his demonstrated love is our glorious victory over everything! So now I live with the confidence that there is nothing in the universe with the power to separate us from God’s love. I’m convinced that his love will triumph over death, life’s troubles, fallen angels, or dark rulers in the heavens. There is nothing in our present or future circumstances that can weaken his love. There is no power above us or beneath us—no power that could ever be found in the universe that can distance us from God’s passionate love, which is lavished upon us through our Lord Jesus, the Anointed One!
Romans 8:37-39 TPT

Then, I returned to Psalms, which always provides a balm and a prayer.

Lord, you know and understand all the hopes of the humble and will hear their cries and comfort their hearts, helping them all!
Psalms 10:17 TPT

So, I must return to the living and stop seeking life among the dead. My God is alive. My King has overcome it all.

While I have spent tears, He has collected every tear I have cried and known my pain and hurting. Yet, He has also known His plans for me. He never gave up and He loves me, even me.

So, today, I finish with a song in my heart and keep focusing on God’s promises, because He will never fail me.

Abba, Holy King,

I am Yours, forever Yours.

I need You in my life. I need Your love, Your power, Your generous mercy.

Without You, I can accomplish nothing. With You, I am more than a conqueror and can do ALL things.

You are Holy and Mighty. Help me walk in Your will, not my own.

Please guide all of who I am into who You desire me to be.

In the Holy name of Jesus, I ask these things.

Amen.

Shalom.