BEING SINGLE & SICK

(Kind Of Complaining & Pondering)

I have been sick, it feels for months. Okay. I will admit that it has been for months. Every time I start to feel better, my system finds some new thing to react to. I am trying to stay cheerful, but some days are easier than others.

Yesterday, I began reading Judges. I always joke with potential suitors that if they want a Proverbs 31 girl, they will also need to understand that I am also a Judges 4 girl. I will stand up for what is right and I will do as my Heavenly Father commands.

For some reason, that eliminates a lot of suitors.

At one point, I was angry about not being wed. It is very hard for a single woman in church. There are Bible studies for Single women (20s-30s). I keep getting told I will fit right in. I do not fit in. I do not believe that the only purpose for a woman is to be married. And I am older than most of these women.

I find myself in older women’s groups and they complain (sometimes) about their husbands and children. I often feel like the odd one out. I am in my 40s and still single. No babies, unless you count my myriad creatures.

Even at work, Book Clubs for women and the books are about making it while married.

I will never have children and there have been days that my heart has cried. I have considered adoption, but no husband to serve as a strong role model.

I go back to purpose. The church does not really see a purpose for unmarried women. We are an outlier. We are especially odd if we are not actively pursuing a husband.

I have always been an outlier. GOD made me that way. Could I be married? Yes. Would I be happy? NO. Would I be serving the LORD? Probably not.

I would like you to be free from worry. An unmarried man concerns himself with the Lord's work, because he is trying to please the Lord. 
1 Corinthians 7:32

So, those of you who are single/divorced/widowed, don’t think you are less. I know this is difficult. Believe me I know and been told that I am less by well-meaning Christians. . . However, take heart, you are single in this season, or for life, because GOD has purpose for you.

The church will not always recognize it, but GOD knows female leadership does not only exist in married women. Sometimes, a woman is called to singlehood and a lack of children, because GOD needs her for something else.

“Sing, O barren one, who did not bear; break forth into singing and cry aloud, you who have not been in labor! For the children of the desolate one will be more than the children of her who is married,” says the LORD. 
Isaiah 54:1

For the LORD has called you like a wife deserted and grieved in spirit, like a wife of youth when she is cast off, says your God. 
Isaiah 54:6

In righteousness you shall be established; you shall be far from oppression, for you shall not fear; and from terror, for it shall not come near you. 
Isaiah 54:14

GOD has a plan!

Do Not Doubt His Mercies!

Do not doubt His great plan for your life. Being an outlier means that His plan for you is different than what the world considers normal.

You are blessed.

Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, amazed by Your greatness.
We long to adhere to Your plans and trust Your will for our lives. I admit that trust and faith seem so hard some days, but I long to serve and do Your will.
Yahweh, help me to trust in Your timing. 
Heal our bodies so we can serve You. Guide us into knowing Your will for us.
We come and desire closeness to You.
Increase our faith.
In the holy name of Jesus, our great Messiah, whom You sent for us, we pray these things,

Amen

Shalom

Finding Purpose